Self Exploration – Am I Boring?
Ξ September 1st, 2008 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Chat |
Since I started my blog I have been behind every day writing in it. Right now I am always about 1 month behind which isn’t a good way to get a big audience to read it regularly. I do realize that. So I am working pretty hard these days to bring it up to date once and for all. Please bare with me.
Today we went to Banana Republic to buy a suit for Celt and I also got a skirt for myself. It turns out that the sale girl is a runner too and she told us where there is a good running store around here. In Vancouver they are every where but here they are hard to find. I guess people in Kentucky prefer smoking rather than running!
Then we went to Victoria Secret and I tried on some lingerie. My favorite was a creme corset that I just can’t find on their website to show you. Celt wanted to buy it but I didn’t think it was a good idea since we had just spent a bunch on a suit and a skirt. I do like when Celt buys me lingerie but I prefer not being there because the prices freak me out. Celt was saying that he loves it when I wear lingerie in the house and not just for photoshoots and shows. It is actually pretty rare that I do that so it got me thinking. Why don’t I wear more sexy lingerie around the house? I think it is because it makes me feel ridiculous and self-conscious about my body. I prefer to wear a big old pyjama or sweats, it is comfortable and I don’t have to think about my gut hanging out or my ass jiggling. I also don’t wear a lot of make-up (if at all) around the house because it is uncomfortable and it makes me feel like a whore.
Soooo… Not quite what you guys were fantasizing about me huh? I am just a regular girl you know? There is more to all of this though. I do have that outlet that is my site… Because of my site I can justify wearing slutty clothes and a ton of make-up ( you have to wear a ton in photoshoots and videos for it to show at all). I love that about my site: it is a way for me to live my sexual fantasies. I get to act like porn star, look like a slut and fuck like a whore.
So am I normal? Do other girls wear lingerie at home? I asked Celt about his exes and he said one in particular did more than most (which means more than me). Ok she was an attention seeker, a stripper and a porn star. She was hot, had huge boobs and a killer body. Quite frankly my kind of girl and I would have loved to have sex with her. But I digress. Celt is really awesome and always makes me feel good and never ever compares me to anyone. But I do have a competitive thing going on (or low self-esteem maybe) so if one of his exes wore more lingerie around the house than me, it makes me want to do it too… Maybe something is seriously wrong with me in the head but that might just work out to make me a more exciting person at home and I am sure Celt isn’t going to complain! LOL